Thread:Chartfanlover/@comment-2081368-20181209170147

So, you asked a question, how am I suffering depression? It’s about time I give a response.

These are three events. After each of them happened, they always come back at least about every second.


 * 1) In 2012, I was adding additions to people’s work. (People were adding additions to my work in other sites.) And Sophie went as far as threatening to KICK ME OUT of my OWN FANON wiki as a DISCIPLINARY MEASURE. Since then, I felt obligated to worship them. (Not to mention I guess because Sophie and Reicheru are emphasizing whatever they add is no worse than anything else according to the world.) And you might ask, can’t you counterrattack? I was too distracted by Sophie’s bureaucrat status to try. What’s more is I was 13, and they were 12. My imagination became traumatized and helpless.
 * 2) In 2014, my 3DS, that was a prized possession, made me an evolved person as soon as getting it, where I spent an estimated $200+ on items and games including sale items, for free games via the ambassador program, and after three years of hard work, was shot. The top screen could eventually SLIDE on the bottom. As a result, my imagination, and optimism for abundance of goodness (especially, instantly, grandly, and largely) declined.
 * 3) In 2017, a new member case into my father’s house, which was the dog. Angelica would delete shit twice so it’s as if she would get away with things she’s done to me. The dog shit on the wires twice. My father blatantly said me and the dog are the same. My potential declined. (I EVEN WANTED TO HAVE NO EXPOSURE TO DOGS STARTING THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR AND ENDED UP GETTING BIT 8 TIMES ON BOTH LEGS IN JULY, AND HIS TEETH WERE IN MY CLOTHES, AND NO ONE FEELS SORRY FOR ME ABOUT IT.)

Everybody makes me seem like the main antagonist.

The things I lose in the above remain taken for granted by other people.

If the question is brought up, “why is Plankton5165 not set free by imagination, depressed, scared? These three respective events are the answers to each question. Like I said, every day since each event started, they always come back.

I don’t think I’m supposed to treat them either.

Not to mention I get treated like an amok runner by everybody at fucking high ages. (The instance of 2012 would fall under the category.) I have people telling me whenever this happens, I need to work on how to prevent it, no, this makes me worse, this makes me unwilling, this leaves me no reason to treat people the way they would like (even though I am more likely to treat people the better the day goes). This happens for actions I DON’T EVEN NOTICE AT THE TIME OF OCCURING.

I got bit by the dog 8 times, I thought people would feel sorry for me and go easy on me, and they did not, I was still out of potential.

I also even get yelled at and get told to do stuff by people like a 4-year old just because I cannot handle the so called stupid dog.

Come to think of it I don’t think I can cope in general anymore.

I’m not expecting to snap out of it either, considering the late Bush 41 and his wife never have from the death of their 3-year old. (She’d be 69 if she lived.)

And Reicheru said Jade is just a character, more like SpongeBob is just a series. It is only still around because it gives off so much satisfaction, just like Jade. 