Thread:Chartfanlover/@comment-2081368-20191116033957

OK, I was planning on sending this as soon as my mother passed away.

But I'm sending this now. Although there is additional information aside from what I was planning to add.

She was the first of four children. And I also wrote down because of her, there were lots of times that were sort of fun (I typed these things while she was alive by the way, and now I wouldn't really say they were fun at all, so clearly this is outdated. Ever since I was LIVING WITH IT, I realized what to actually call "fun". AND ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?! YOU KNOW WHAT MY FATHER SAID TONIGHT?! I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO JUDGE!) I never go to this wiki because I know and understand it's wrong, if I don't like seeing something, I don't like seeing something. There is nothing wrong with FJF itself. What is wrong is that it's brought to my current place of residence, also known as the house of my father, my mother would also call my father "piece of shit", "asshole", could I go on and on?

She had sounded real happy a lot. That I typed up while she was alive. If it wasn't for her I would not have seen quite a few people that I thought were great. I would count on her really heaving for the vast majority of the last two decades (which seemed like 100 or 200, but in truth, it wasn't long. I actually was watching a Loud House episode today, where a character said 20 years felt like 1,000. Can you guess which one it was?)

But also, I think I can tell when someone is about to die. People who mysteriously, totally humbly bother me, tend to die sooner.

Also I wrote down:
 * "It's tough when your mother who calls yourself the only ally, and teaches you, who has autism, how to walk, talk, and do what an adult does, is going before you're 21." (I even forgot she did those things!)
 * "Provided advice to think of the positives" (My aunt Melinda said my mother was definitely not a scam artist. We'll actually see about that. Once again, MY FATHER SAID I DON'T KNOW HOW TO JUDGE!! So, just because I lose all the states in a parody of a presidential election that based whether my life was good or bad on whether I win or lose, doesn't mean my life was bad, just because I lose all the votes (my opponent gets 100%, I get 0%, even 60%-40% is considered overwhelming) in a parody of a state election that based whether a day/month was good or bad on whether I win or lose, also doesn't mean my life was bad?)
 * "She made an intentionally extraordinary macaroni and cheese recipe, turning leftovers into an intentional rockstar. I would plan on making the recipe myself, and trust me, when I do, it's going to be better." (It's going to be better? Really?)
 * "Was trying hard to live longer"
 * "She said she was the best I got. At this point, I think that would be myself." (My father insisted that too.)

"I think she might have joined Whitney Houston in the 48 club."

At this point, I would be making 30 episodes in what once was a projected week already. There hasn't been one episode in six months since I still live with painful enough characters in too painful a house!

I'd rather hear just abuse, then abuse and FJF simultaneously by a shot how long? That cannot be described.

Actually, there is something I typed, apparently on November 9:

"The family actually resurfaces my life in a way that cannot even begin to be described. A downside so bad, today's top tier favorites that were mentioned are not even redeeming enough. To make matters worse, the moments with these top tier favorites are nothing but trouble."

And I'm also gonna reveal what I said just after that:

What if I want to tell Laura that? What is the reason why?

There's immune counters everywhere, which means they move my mood back and also at least quadruple the pain. Such as aggression, and other things that were beyond unacceptable. I also told Will, Laura's husband, my brother in law, saying these things are part of my ideal cup of tea, is like using my testicles as bongos.

While you live with Georgia, FJF is gonna have to count on me living near you sooner or later.

My family ain't ever going to be invited to my tea party. I even have a very hard time identifying it.

I SHOULD NOT GO EASIER ON THIS LIFE THAN I DO! IN FACT, I SHOULD GO HARDER ON THIS LIFE THAN I DO! COME TO THINK OF IT, ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!?! 